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​It’s not for nothing that many righteous women were barren at the beginning of their lives. They were so holy and their work was so important that the forces of evil wanted to prevent them from achieving their potential and exerted extra effort for that. Because of that, they were able to block them from getting pregnant and their children’s souls from coming down.

More than that, Hashem made it so because he desires the prayer of righteous women and barrenness can indeed propel a woman to pray with all her heart.We learn in Etz Chaim from previous articles that the process of praying and getting pregnant are very similar in as much as praying is a form of elevating the Mayim Nukvin (female waters) in order to draw down the Mayim Dukhrin (male waters), just like in the intimate act between a woman and a man.

There are awesome Kabbalistic secrets on why women are barren and this is what we will be exploring here!


Why are women barren and what can we learn from this?

​As with everything in Kabbalah, there’s no singleanswer to any question. Someone may be rich, poor, healthy, sick, have a large family, a small family, or anything else, due to a confluence of factors surrounding that person which, together, put him in that specific situation. It takes a real Tzadik with massive Ruach HaKodesh (divine spirit) to pinpoint the one thing that will dissolve all spiritual barriers and bring the person the salvation he needs. Therefore, we need to make an effort in fixing the problems without knowing how long it will take and what exactly is that broke the spiritual wall.

​Nevertheless, we can (and should!) study each of these factors individually and try to fix them. In Sha’ar HaGilgulim (“Gate of Reincarnations”), Rav Chaim Vital tells us that a male soul may reincarnate in a female body, causing it to be barren. In this case, because there’s no potential for elevating Mayim Nukvin (since the soul is a male), then there’s no corresponding Mayim Dukhrin (which is the equivalent of a soul being brought down).

The solution requires a lot of prayer and compassion, but is not impossible: Hashem may send another female soul to that body so that it’s able to conceive. In turn, this female soul may go down and reincarnate again in the baby girl born or it may continue to be in the grown-up woman to give birth to other souls. This might sound mind-boggling, but Hashem’s system of reincarnations is perfect and a natural part of the world.

Rav Chaim Vital writes that the Arizal revealed to him that his first wife had the soul of Turnus Rufus, the cruel Roman general that tested Rabbi Akiva many times. Rav Chaim Vital himself also was a reincarnation of Rabbi Akiva, and this may explain why they also had a stormy relationship at the beginning of their marriage as, in his own words from Sefer HaChezionot, “my wife cast a spell on me during our wedding night, and I was bedridden for 9 months”, among many other problems.

Of course, without someone like the Arizal, very few people can tell what sort of Tikkun we need and where our souls come from. But one thing is for sure, we are in a generation where the greatest Tikkunim are being done by the strongest of souls since the forces of the Sitra Achra are exerting their maximum effort to prevent the final Geulah (redemption).


Chana Segulah

​We find that the holy Chana was barren and her co-wife Penina had 10 children. Chana had to suffer in order to open certain gates of prayer, which to this day helps women who follow her path to get pregnant. In fact, one great Segulah to get pregnant is to recite Chana’s song of jubilation that she sang after she gave birth to the prophet Shmuel.

​Additionally, because the prophet Shmuel marked the beginning of a new era of prophecy by opening new channels of communication with Hashem. It makes sense that his descent into this world was feared by the forces of evil and therefore they exerted all their efforts in preventing him from coming down. Chana also had to suffer the afflictions of her co-wife Penina and be humiliated in order to merit the awesome soul of Shmuel.

​Nowadays, we don’t know where the souls come from, how high they are and what they are capable of accomplishing. The greatest Tzadikim started their lives as babies and very few people could tell what they had the potential to be. Often, we only see the reasons why we had to go through what we did after many years down the line.

​Prayer is much more powerful once we experience these afflictions since they propel us to greater heights. Nevertheless, there really is nothing that prayer cannot accomplish, as Rebbe Nachman writes in many places in Likkutey Moharan.

​And we need to realize that everything that Hashem does is for the best, everything is custom-tailored for our soul’s needs. This is the main principle of the Torah of reincarnation. We only need Emunah that He’s here and, sometimes, just a prayer away.

​I bless that all women wanting to be pregnant and reading this will find comfort through Hashem, and be blessed with many healthy children!

This article was written in the zechut of Rahel Bat Esther Gittel & family. May Hashem help them attain all their hearts desires speedily!

In the merit of the study of this book - the book of the Zohar - the Jewish People will leave the Exile in a merciful manner. (parashat Naso, 124b)

Studying Kabbalah is a huge source of merit that can bring all sorts of salvation to a person’s life.

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​It’s no secret that the study of Kabbalah is different from all the other parts of the revealed Torah. Kabbalah is essentially a study of how Creation works. It’s a highly esoteric and mystical branch of Jewish “philosophy” (if it can be called that), that seeks to uncover the hidden meanings and spiritual significance behind the Torah and other Jewish texts. The word "Kabbalah" itself means "receiving" or "tradition," and refers to the secret oral traditions that were passed down from teacher to student throughout the ages.

At its core, the study of Kabbalah is an attempt to understand the nature of Hashem’s involvement in the universe on a deeper level than is possible through ordinary rational thought or empirical observation. It seeks to penetrate the veil of material reality and access the spiritual realms that lie beyond, in order to gain insight into the divine nature of existence. For that, one is required to be familiar with the conceptual significance of words and find non-verbal meaning in them.

Many people think that the origins of Kabbalah can be traced back to the early centuries of the Common Era, when Kabbalists began to develop a system of esoteric teachings based on the Hebrew Bible and the Talmud.

However, it was well-known from the teachings of the Zohar and other books like the Bahir, the SeferYetzirah and others that Kabbalah has been handed down since Adam HaRishon, through the Avot and Imahot, through the Jews in the desert, the prophets and sages. While we have a wealth of Kabbalah books, unfortunately, most of the wisdom has been lost. To give you an idea: The entire Etz Chayim, which is the main, work by Arizal, which is massive and complex is based on 7 to 9 verses in the Torah that speak about the rise and fall of the ancient kings. Each king is a reference to one of the 7 primordial Sephirot that emanated from the “Eyes of Adam Kadmon”, and shattered. While Etz Chaim and other works quote other verses, these 7 to 9 are the foundation of all the knowledge we have! This leaves us with almost 5.900 verses left to write at least as much only on the Torah itself!


The dual nature of Kabbalah

Despite its mystical nature, the study of Kabbalah has always been closely tied to mainstream Jewish tradition and scholarship.

However, this deep wisdom has also been the subject of controversy and debate within the Jewish community. Some have argued that its esoteric teachings are too difficult to understand and should be reserved only for the most advanced students, while others have claimed that its emphasis on mystical experience and personal revelation is at odds with traditional Jewish law and practice.

Today, the study of Kabbalah is more or less open to a certain degree as many works have been translated. Its wisdom inspires people to do Teshuva and search for Hashem deepening one’s service and fixing his Middot (personal attributes). It is a very powerful tool for spiritual exploration and self-discovery, as well as a source of deep insight into the nature of God, the universe, and the human soul.

What the study of Kabbalah involves

The study of Kabbalah typically involves a combination of textual analysis, meditation, and spiritual practice while at the same time following Halacha to the letter. Those that think Kabbalah somehow contradicts Halacha don’t know that every single ritual in Law is merely the external manifestation of the internal, spiritual worlds.

Kabbalistic texts, such as the Zohar and the SeferYetzirah, are highly symbolic and can be difficult to understand without proper guidance and instruction. As a result, most Kabbalistic teachings are passed down through a tradition of study with a qualified teacher or mentor.

Then we have Kabbalistic meditation such as Yichudim and Kavanot, which are designed to help people access the spiritual realms and experience a deeper connection to Hashem in a most direct way. These practices often involve visualization, breathing techniques, and recitation of verses or names of Hashem. However, nowadays, since we don’t have the requisite level of purity, pronouncing the names of Hashem or angels is strictly forbidden.


Main ideas of Kabbalah

One of the central concepts in Kabbalah is the idea of the "Tree of Life," a complex symbolic representation of Hashem’s emanations and the various levels of spiritual reality. The Tree of Life is often used as a framework for understanding Hashem’s divine providence, the universe, and the human soul.

The Sephirot are ten attributes or emanations that represent different aspects of Hashem’s relationship with us. Each Sephirah has its own unique qualities and is associated with specific divine names.

The Four Spiritual Worlds, on the other hand, are a way of categorizing the different levels of spiritual reality. These worlds represent progressively higher levels of consciousness and divine revelation, with each world encompassing and transcending the previous one. The four worlds are Atzilut, Briah, Yetzirah, and Assiyah, and are often depicted as concentric circles or spheres within the Tree of Life.

Together, the Sephirot and the Four Spiritual Worlds provide a comprehensive model of the structureof Creation, and offer a roadmap for spiritual growth and enlightenment. Elevation starts from the lowest rung of the Sephirot called Malkhut (Kingship), which entails the internalization that we are servants of Hashem and accept His Laws, and ends with Keter(Crown), when we become subsumed in Hashem’s light in Olam HaBah, receiving our reward (the “crowns”, so to speak).

By studying and meditating on these concepts, we can gain awe of Hashem and deepen our connection to Him.


Requirements to Study Kabbalah

​The study of Kabbalah requires a certain level of spiritual preparedness and moral purity, as well as a willingness to engage in acts of self-reflection, personal growth, and service to others.

One of the key principles of Kabbalah is the importance of purifying oneself in order to access higher levels of spiritual consciousness. This purification process involves examining one's thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors, and striving to eliminate negative qualities such as egoism, selfishness, and anger. By cultivating positive qualities such as love, kindness, and compassion, practitioners of Kabbalah seek to align themselves more closely with the divine and to access deeper levels of spiritual insight.

This is because one’s understanding of Kabbalah depends mainly on the degree of fear of Hashem that he has. Rav Chaim Vital writes that this knowledge cannot be understood on brainpower alone like the Talmud and Halachot, because it’s safeguarded by angels. The only way to merit receiving it is by being worthy.

In addition to personal purification, the study of Kabbalah also requires a willingness to go beyond the letter of the law and to act with greater spiritual intent. This means not only following the external rules and regulations of Jewish law as set in the Shulchan Aruch, but also seeking to understand the deeper spiritual principles behind these laws and applying them in one's daily life.

Overall, the study of Kabbalah is a transformative journey that requires a deep commitment to personal growth, moral purity, and service to others. The more one teaches others, the more one understands.

Nevertheless, the doors are open, as this wisdom is crucial to hastening the Geulah. Nowadays, there’s a sort of consensus among Rabbis that this can also be accomplished by studying Chassidut, which is easier to understand.

Hashem does not withhold the good from those with a sincere heart. We learn from the Zohar and writings of Kabbalists.

This article was written in the zechut of Golda Beylah Bas Elka, Elka Bas Shayndel, Liba Laybala bas Shayndel, Yeshayahu ben Chaya, Chaya Bas Shayndel, Betzalel Nuchman ben Chaya, Yitzchak Levi ben Chaya, Davida Bas Shayndel

The merit of the study of this book - the book of the Zohar - the Jewish People will leave the Exile in a merciful manner. (parashat Naso, 124b)

Studying Kabbalah is a huge source of merit that can bring all sorts of salvation to a person’s life.

If you want to sponsor to have me study in-depth Kabbalah from the Arizal or the Rashash in your merit and receive its blessings, especially for sustenance, children and health ❤️

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​We are already past half of Sephirat HaOmer and so it’s important to prepare for Shavuot! As most people already know, Shavuot is the festival of receiving the Torah. It’s one of the easiest to prepare for, but one of the most demanding to fulfill from a Kabbalistic standpoint.

​Rabbenu Bachya who was also a great Kabbalist made the distinction between the Festivals based on the verse from the Torah: כִּי קָרוֹב אֵלֶיךָ הַדָּבָר מְאֹד בְּפִיךָ וּבִלְבָבְךָ לַעֲשֹׂתוֹ, which translate as “Because the matter is very close to you in your mouth (this is Pesach) and in your heart (this is Shavuot) to do it (this is Sukkot)”. This is because the main service on Pesach is by using the mouth to tell the Haggadah, on Sukkot is performing many actions like building the Sukkah and waving the 4 species, but on Shavuot, it’s by meditating “in the heart”.

The Tzadik and the crowns

​There’s a very strong allusion to the figure of the Tzadik of the generation on Shavuot. As we learned before, these 50 days from Pesach through SephiratHaOmer and Shavuot constitute one Partzuf (spiritual system). During Sephirat HaOmer, we are only rectifying the Sephirot of Chokhmah, Bina, Da’at, Chesed, Gevurah, Tiferet and Malkhut… but not Netzach, Hod and Yesof!

​About these Sephirot that are lacking, the Arizalteaches that they are rectified with the Tikkun of Shavuot since, according to the Zohar, the 2 Tablets Moshe brought down from Mount Sinai represent Netzach and Hod.

​So what about Yesod?

​This, we can infer, is represented by Moshe Rabbenu, as the verse in Mishlei (proverbs) 10:25 teaches that “the Tzadik is the Yesod of the world”. This is one of the reasons why it’s so important to be attached to the leader of the generation. Sometimes this leader is more evident, sometimes less.

​However, if you’ve been paying attention, we didn’t mention the Sephira of Keter, which is the highest light attainable! And that is because it usually comes as a gift from Hashem at the end of every cycle.

In this case, it comes during the…

Tikkun of Shavuot

​The Arizal arranged the Tikkun of Shavuot to be the final step in the Partzuf (spiritual system) that is preceded by Pesach and Sephirat HaOmer.

This is the service that is performed by most menand that’s why Shavuot is closely associated with men,who need to bring Torah to the home. This is in contrast to Yom Kippur, when the main Partzuf that’s being elevated is that of the Shekhina (which womenare connected to), likely because they did not participate in the sin of the golden calf.

The Tikkun involves reciting parts of the 24 books of the Tanach (the beginning and end of each), including the full book of Ruth, which takes altogether anywhere between 2 to 3 hours, and then studying Kabbalah the rest of the night. These are the 24 adornments that the Shekhinah (Malkhut) receives on this special night before going to the Chuppah to be married to Zeir Anpin (the 6 Sephirot of Chesed, Gevurah, Tiferet, Netzach, Hod and Yesod). During the Tikkun, we are bringing the Netzach, Hod and Yesodwhich were missing to complete the Partzuf.

When the sun is almost up, men must immerse in the Mikvah and this is when we bring in the Sephira of Keter. Then, it’s important to pray the Tefilah of Shacharit as Vatikin (in the earliest possible time) so that the time for the Amidah coincides with sunrise.

The ultimate union between the Shekhina and ZeirAnpin of this entire long system of 50 days is done on the Kedusha of Musaf, when we say the words “Shema Israel, Adonai Elo-heinu, Adonai Echad”. Finally, weneed to make Kiddush in order finalize the Tikkun, and then we are free to do whatever we want (including sleep).

Rabbi Shimon explains in the Zohar that when someone does this Tikkun and does not sleep at all, he receives no less than 70 awesome blessings from Hashem himself, is written up in the Sefer HaZichronot(Book of Remembrance), is called “Servant of the Queen”, and is assured not to die a premature death that year. That is, if they don’t sleep at all until the very end of the Tikkun.

Some women do the Tikkun and there’s no problem with that, though they obviously don’t go to the Mikvah. It’s evident that Hashem see every effort with kind eyes and many women also end up praying Vatikin.

All the prayer that we do is, however, only the internal part of the light. The external part is brought when we eat the festive meal of Shavuot, as in every other Shabbat and Yom Tov. One of the reasons why we milk foods at night is not only because the Torah is associated with milk, but because we want to stay up all night! Therefore, many have the custom to eat meat during the day in order to at least have one meal with meat.

May we all have a wonderful Shavuot and merit all these awesome lights!

This article was written in the zechut of Ariella Rachel bat Sarah. May Hashem help her atttain all her hearts desires speedily!

In the merit of the study of this book - the book of the Zohar - the Jewish People will leave the Exile in a merciful manner. (parashat Naso, 124b)

Studying Kabbalah is a huge source of merit that can bring all sorts of salvation to a person’s life.

If you want to sponsor to have me study in-depth Kabbalah from the Arizal or the Rashash in your merit and receive its blessings, especially for sustenance, children and health ❤️

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